God willing

5:37am- had some crazy dreams. And my neck is tender from tossing and turning almost all night. But God is good, I'm alive and everything is going to be ok. Let me get up and pray and get this day going. Everyday after work I'm move my stuff. 

7:44am- I think they will have to change schools. I'm get all the information. I got a bunch of phone calls I need to make. Utilities, waste management, boys school, after school program. 

11:28am- boom they split offices for Sunday so I'll not see her Sunday anymore. Not until Jan or Feb. Like I legit accept that she of not for me. An I'm glad is protecting me. Helping me get over her. I really do never want to see her again. I pray Allah sends me the one for me. 

9:41pm- I realized I was emotional because of the finality of things. I'm grateful God is protecting me and moving in my life. I really am grateful. I prayed for him to remove her from my life and keep her away from me. An my Lord is answering my prayers. So I'm super grateful. I'm not the same person I was before. An I like who I'm becoming. I like being this new person. I'm so tired of the old life, the old bullshit. But it still hurts me sometimes too think about it.... I moved more stuff into my house. Everyday I'm moving our stuff into our house. I'm get away from this city from these people.