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7:10am- doing things the right way is hard. Being sober, gentle parenting, healing a broken heart, caring for your inner child. This stuff is hurtful and frustrating and hard. It's like I want to cry I want to give up. But it's like nah man, we can't dwell in that dark place. Can't live in this desire to escape your reality. Can't die in sin. I want to be better an that's a blessing from God. I want to be different and be my best self. Grow into the best version of me possible. But it's hurtful, is hard, it feels like it's not worth it at times. Like just going back to smoking and sitting around would be easier. But I know that's hard as well. So like pick your hard. Pick your hardship and struggle... I'm dropping the boys to school, than Comcast guy, than later I gotta pick up asia, go over my budget maybe buy some shelves for my house. Do laundry clean my room more. I have so many things to do. An worst I go in early all week so no staying in my house. 

8:30am- flipping Comcast came to tell me I need an electrician to come out and run the wire. Ugh what an annoyance. So now I'm calling around to find one. 

10:04am- plumber came out and he waxing to fix it. I'm never using this guy again. He charging $325. I'm waiting on the electrician to come and give me a price for this cable installation. Eating up my little bit of money. But thank God I have the money. Hopefully everything can get done today and I can move forward with life. I love having a house. The stable place of residency. A place of my own. Guess the first month is the most expensive. I haven't even paid mortgage yet. I'm just paying to set everything up right now. 

12:18pm- boom God is good to me. Son I'm over this girl.... Ok so boom the pipe is fixed and paid for it. An Xfinity gotta come back out to do this. 

2:24pm- God is good, it's been a GREAT day in my house. Fuck I love having a house. God is so good and amazing to me. So no YouTube videos for a little longer. 

7:41pm- first day off spent in my house. I fucking love it. I'm going to get back into my writing and seriously focus on me. When God wants me have a wife I will get a wife. Until then I'm loving on me and caring for my sons. I got to speak to Big meesh today and it felt great. I got things done I'm so happy about being in my house. Like this my shit. Bro I've never been the type to settle for trash. I gotta stop down playing myself like I'm not that nigga. I'm the fucking guy and these hoes try to front on the kid. Brokie!! Brokie big mad. Shorty fumbled a MAJOR bag. Thank God he protected from trash. Right so I'm done with that. I'm put up a shelf and keep getting my house in order. Fuck I love this shit.