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6:48am- this journey has not been easy. I'm still scared still nervous. But I'm pushing forward I'm still trying. I want to shift my thinking. Shift my life. I want better, I need better, I have to have better. Because I know it's out there and I want a part of it. I deserve it…today I need to find Jophiel a oral surgeon. I also need to cut my hair when I get home. And the coach is supposed to come so I gotta get back into fixing up the house correctly. Hell I need to organize my office. I been throwing everything in there without even thinking about it so that'll be a project soon enough. But I'm get the main house in order than I'll deal with the office. 

1:00pm- all day, today's message has been patience. To be patient.. An I'm trying Lord. I'm seriously trying. It's getting harder harder each day though. Cause it's like I'm so ready I feel ready I want it. An God is nope, not today. Which makes me think my vibrations are still not high enough. But it's like well how do I raise them? What more can I do? I'm ready to get off work. Go home and cook some food. And lay in my bed. I'm ready to go to my house. 

5:31pm- living in gratitude ain't easy. But everything has to be seen as happening for me not too me.

7:09pm- I really do enjoy pulling into my driveway. Going into my house. Can't wait until everything is complete. Damn Walmart refunded me my coach. So now I gotta order another one. I'm look on Wayfair and might try Walmart again. But tomorrow I think I'm go to Goodwill and see what they got. And there is a furniture store right up the street as well. Soon I'll be coming home to my wife. I like the way that sounds. 

9:48pm- I didn't do no filming today. But I edited my website, groomed myself, cooked dinner, and took care of my mental and emotional health. I feel good about myself. I'm shower, pray, and head to bed. God is good.