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8:22am- I feel good today. I really think my affirmations loop is working. I'm going to make a video on it. Today I got stuff to do for real. I think I'm going to be productive. Or I may take the day and play video games and just relax. Sometimes a day of rest is needed. Is ok to just be, to just exist. 

1:14pm- my baby boy went outside to play and made him some friends. I'm nervous but I respect his independence. I'm going to cook this shrimp Alfredo for lunch then do some filming. I been playing spellspire all morning. It's time to be productive. Although it's also ok to take time and rest. That time to play. 

3:42pm- ever since I stop drinking people don't invite me out anymore. Like I'm ready to go out again and just hangout. But I'm not going to drink alcohol. An like people say hey you wanna go here or go grab a drink. An say yeah but I don't drink. I'll still come out though. An then boom, they cancel or don't reply. I like that but it shows that alcohol is the bonder of lower frequencies. 

8:45pm- that shrimp Alfredo was fire. The boys loved it and so did i. My pasta cooking has gotten so much better. I'm cook some steak tomorrow…I'm tired but I'm not tired yet. It's so weird. And I need to reupload my go baby video.