the ocean doesn't ask for water

6:02am- ugh she's so dumb. I legit just wanted to love mail. The idea of moving on from her hurts, I don't want to do that. But whatever. Give her space, that's so dumb. We should've been talked she should've been understood why she's wrong and adjust. What a stupid ass ... Literally got a man wanting to marry her and build a life and she rather drink bar hop and be men side pieces 🤬😡🤬 ok ok so I woke up angry ... I'm go pray... We need a nickname for this woman who gave me her number. She's really cool, I think tonight I might take her out. Not sure where though. But I'll figure that out. 

6:54am- sorry I keep lashing out. Sorry I keep mentioning her. You'd think I'd be over it by now. But I'm legit not, but I'm grateful to God. I pray everyday that God heals me and her and if we're meant to be he returns her to me and allows us to be together. If she's not for me take her from my heart and mind. Allow me to move on with my life and forget about her. I'm in a good mood though to be honest. Today will be a good day. Hopefully it's a 4:30 day. If not that's ok. I want the money. 

12:36pm- ok so Thursday I go to the workout class with clerk. Which is cool, and I'm going with the first place that responded. If I don't get it and the second place responds than I'm going with that. I'm excited and scared and I miss damn mail. 

8:38pm- I live a blessed life and I thank God for real. He's beyond good to me.