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5:42am- God is good and big things are about to happen. Quantum leaping is real. Entering a new timeline is real. My packages will come this week, I'm set up the house. Everything is going to be alright. Next year I'll have my Tesla. 

7:30am- I'm going to pray on it. But I think I wanna buy Bitcoin when my money hits. I'm ask God to tell me what's better. Pay off a big chunk of my debt or buy Bitcoin until it pumps and I need the money. If it's below $100,000 I think I wanna buy and sell around $110,00-$150,000. I'm just thinking out loud.

11:12am- people get why I had to break up with her. I want a family. I wanna live together and get married. She didn't want to do that with me. I had to leave her ..I love her, if she just grow up and cut her shit we could still be together. Like she just gotta stop that childish bullshit and come home. Let me shower her with love and affection…but only if it's God will. If God wants that for me. 

2:05pm- Everytime my phone goes off I'm hoping it's her and I know it won't be. I can't wait to move on and be with my person. Someone to pour into and they pour back into me…I've been thinking of getting a few of these self love black woman journals. It's a few women I know who need to focus on themselves and heal they heart. 

2:43pm- I been trying to stick to getting fit. Keeping my heart pumping daily. 

like this morning I rode my workout bike for 5 mins. An I think that's what I'm going to do daily. 5-15 minutes of riding. This way my heart can get to pumping early in the morning. Start the day with water and a bike ride. I felt pretty good when I got to work. I'm not that tired right now either. But we'll see what it does to me this week. If it helps with my energy levels, mental clarity, and emotional balance. I need to get back to doing my Duolingo daily as well. 

6:12pm- I gotta get back to writing my books. I'm when I get off work I gotta use my time better. I've had enough down time. Almost a month. Although I did really good the last couple months, but I gotta go hard. I gotta back to creating and less consuming. 

7:09pm- today my ego has been on over drive. It's been trying to control me all day. Telling me text this person say this call them. Pulling me into possible futures. Coming up with scenarios. It's been acting up today. But I didn't react. I didn't listen to it once. I just observed the thoughts. Acknowledged some of them. But mostly I sat with myself. Listened to my thoughts, listened to my affirmations, and watched like 3 YouTube videos. I'm almost off then I'm going home to shower and go to bed. I'm kinda tired…. Maybe I'll try to write today. 

7:44pm- I just got off …good overtime. I was thinking maybe I don't want more kids…well I guess I want whatever God wants for me. I wouldn't mind two more kids. Or one more. But I gotta be married. 

7:51pm- I really believe everything happens for a reason. God controls my life. All things happening for me. All things are God, my higher self desires unity with God again. So he nudges me to do and say certain things. It pushes me in the direction of betterment. I pray I'm listening. I pray I'm following the path. I don't think this will be my last go around the planet. But I hope it is…if my spirit has a few more times in the earth machine. I hope my next lives I'm about to find my true love when I'm young and experience a 50-80 year marriage with someone who I'm truly in love with and they're in love with me. I want to experience someone whose utterly in love and obsessed with me. Who loves everything about me even the parts that piss them off. Maybe one day…maybe in this lifetime I'll get that. It would be nice …but it feels like God will give me nothing or a love that I'm totally into them and barely into me. That's the story of my life. Not counting the girls who liked me but I didn't like them. Physical attraction is important to a relationship. An I have a type. Always have and probably always will. 

8:30pm- I'm home and I'm tired. I'm shower and probably go to sleep.