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6:31am- my baby boy is off to school today. I love how they bus stop is literally right by the house. They don’t walk far they just walk right there. It’s other kids that live around here and go to school with jojo as well. So he could legit start a nice little life here. I love this for my son. I’m so glad I bought a house. This house is a perfect size for us. An when my wife comes we’ll have room for her as well. 4 bedroom 3 bath. Great buy and I think when I go bigger with my wife. I’m going to keep this house and rent it out. But for sure, I was thinking about it last night. I want another child. I want to have a baby. I wanna get married first then have a child. So yeah in the meantime I need to buckle down and lock in. because I need my $100,000 a year after taxes. I signed back up for college. But college is a after thought. I think the second half of this year I’m going to seriously focus on college and work towards my degree. For now I’m just taking a few classes, focusing on youtube and writing my books. That’s really what I need to do. Focus on my books, get them done, then promote them. Because after the books I want to write some movie scripts and film those. I still wanna make art, movies that inspire people. Movies that touch people inside, really sparks something in their core. Ok so today we do a bit of budgeting and I gotta go to walmart for a few things and I should do some filming. I’m thinking about doing that. I gotta get back into gear. Shake off this funk I’ve been in. Also when I open my blinds you can literally see right into my house. I can see jojo bus stop from my bedroom window. Yeah I gotta get curtains for my home. I like the blinds open because I like letting the sunlight in. 

8:01am- that coffee wrecked my stomach. But it’s ok, Im getting back into routine. I was looking at rings to buy for my wife. I think her finger size was a 7. But she probably weighs more now so her finger is thicker. But I’m wait to buy it for when she finally comes back. On another note, I’m getting ready to go to Walmart and get this stuff. Jophiel underwear, protein powder, bananas, sponges, and sticky notes. Today will be a good day. I need to be productive right now my stomach hurts and I’m not in the mood to do anything. So we’ll see. Seriously it’s important I’m more gentle with myself. I gotta let go of my pursuits. Life is about being, just existing. 

9:10am- I really love and thank God that I can hear birds chirping every morning. When I was waiting for the bus with Jojo I could hear birds all around us. Right now I can hear birds in the backyard. I don't really like that an thank God for that small mercy of his voice. 

9:40am- the ego lives for the future or the past. An I've been living in the future. Constantly thinking and talking about a wife. A wife that I currently don't have but want. That's my ego, that's ego. 

9:50am- killing your ego isn't the answer. Understanding it and using it as the tool it is. That's the key. Because you need the past to guide your future. To know where you came from and where not to go back to. The future is important for hope, for feeling better. When you can imagine a better future you can and will act in better ways. So you need your ego, your sense of self. Again I don't drink or smoke because I want my sperm to be as healthy as possible. I want to have another baby. Maybe two ..I imagine a future where I'm married and my wife is pregnant with my child. That's my ego that sees that for me. An I like that. I want that. So I do things now that will bring me closer to that. Delaying my happiness now for happiness later. As long as you can see yourself being who you are. You're in control of who you are. Because at any moment of seeing yourself do or say something that doesn't align with who you think you are. You can step in and alter the behavior of yourself. An active observer opposed to a simple observer. 

12:23pm- I made some juice, blackberry, strawberry, ginger, watermelon juice. That shit taste so good, I put a ting of orange in it just to add a bit of citrus. Jophiel likes it, an I like it. So yeah man this juicer was such a good investment. 

2:32pm- Jojo like his new school the fucking bus stop is literally in front our house for both of them. God really did this for us. He put us here for a reason. So when Edith comes back and ready to live together Emani can get the bus right there in front the house. Everything is working out. I was so scared but God is handling this good. 

9:22pm- I'm going to change my email for my YouTube channel. Today was another great day.