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6:55am- it's crazy I know the routine to implement. The exact things and I have all the things to do it. And I've set up my environment to do it. But I lack the discipline or motivation or will power. It's hard to say which one it is. Although I know I am a person who can. Because I have. It's just sticking to it. An it's like why the fuck don't I stick to it? Like what the hell man. Idk, but this long weekend which is this Friday. I think I'm going to go see Ashley. She's 7 hours away, that is a days work drive. Get a hotel and just chill up there for the weekend. That's like when I get to GA to see Tina and Tanvi. This month I see Ashley. She next month I have no idea who I'll go visit. 

1:38pm- yeah I'm get back to this cyber security. I think…no I'm going to leave the post office. I'm get some certifications and do some projects while if financial aid pays for me to get my bachelor's degree. 

8:18pm- I gotta figure out what I'm so afraid of. Why I'm looking for distractions so much.