day by day

6:28am- I woke up feeling pretty good, I'm definitely a 8 person. But first let's remember. I'm another human floating on a spinning speeding rock in the vastness of outer space. These are my rambles. So yeah I'm feeling pretty decent today. I got work shortly because of the storm. Which is crazy to work knowing a storm is coming. You would think the human thing to do is shut shit down and prepare. But nope, capitalism must march on. Whatever, let's get this day over. I gotta do laundry, which is another annoying as fuck thing I gotta do. But you know what I gotta stop that. Thank God I have a job, thank God I can afford to do laundry, thank God I have a car to take me to do laundry, thank God for my cloths, thank God for my life and all he's given me. I will be grateful for what I have and grateful for what I don't have ... Which I don't have a love to call my own 😭😭😭.

9:15am- I better be off tomorrow, cause this is crazy. Ridiculous they got us working. But whatever

10:10am- this is really what I'm learning 

learning to love me fully and totally. An be ok.... Idk that might be apart of the reason I desire a relationship. I'm unhappy with myself. But I like me. I like who I am and I'm willing to grow and change. I just don't wanna do it alone I guess. 

11:07am- I feel hopeful, God got me. I gotta have faith gotta lean into my faith heavy, I think that's the real move. 

2:52pm- they talking about call the hotline to find out if you have work tomorrow. That's bullshit, storm hit tonight we should be off tomorrow to recover. But whatever, I have faith. Whatever... Life is all God will. 

9:09pm- I changed up the set up of my house. Also idk if I'm going to buy a house. I'll buy one with a wife but just me and my boys. I could just have. I'm check the calculator if it's cheaper if my rent is $1600 what's the numbers but you can see it's cheaper for me to rent. 

there's nothing wrong with renting. 

it doesn't change much. At least with the renting I can save up more money. Save up $100,000 cash and invest the money. $20-$30,000 I'm going to buy a Tesla cash. I don't even need the self driving a video says. I'm watch more videos. I want a Tesla. $25,000 cash for a used Tesla. I think that's the route I'm go. 

yeah I think so. In two years cause I'm not going to add debt. No more debt.