don't be dumb

6:02am- I'm tired and I got my coffee. Let's get this day over with. It's Monday so I know I'll have a long day at work. I'm pack this lunch and mentally prepare. Is all good, I want the money. Cause I'm buy us a house for real. I need to change my bed sheet as well. I dreamt of my mother and of mail. I'm try not to over think it though. I really do miss her. I was thinking of writing her a letter. 

6:24am- clerk always wanna hang out, I don't mind. She's cool people. Good conversation and great vibes. Maybe I'll kick it with her Wednesday after I go look at a few houses. I need to get back to doing my Duolingo. I love Spanish, love the women 😍🤤😍 that's my second favorite woman. Dark skin black women are first. Then dark skin Spanish. Then everyone else... I should learn Spanish. 

6:40am- these types of things make me think about how this woman treated me. 

but she truly needs love... Ugh, I wanna love her. I wanna give her the love she needs and deserves. I'm such a fool, if she called or text I would take her back. An yes I broke up with her because of how she was treating me. But maybe she's autistic or she still grieving or she's just depressed. She needs my love and doesn't know it... Or maybe I'm just lonely. 

7:44am- I got $30+ worth of cards. 

just to mail out to people. I write nice messages and mail it to friends and family. Sometimes I might write an letter to include in the card. I think it's nice to open your mailbox and get a nice card. For family I have the boys write a message. Especially if it's a card to Tina. 

6:31pm- I'm almost off, what a day. I'm sleepy I'm hungry what a day. 

7:25pm- I'm off and tired, I'm getting some food and going home. I'm tired and hungry. I'm shower eat and go to bed. I wanted to watch that movie "civil war" so I'm talk to y'all tomorrow. I'm tired.