grow up

6:05am- we can not make someone love us. No matter how good you might be to someone. How much you show someone you're right for them. If they don't see it. It's a waste... 

i saw this and thought damn that's true. An I thought to myself some people really don't try to grow and change. Like that's apart of life. Change is what we're supposed to do. 

change for the better. An some people will literally stay the same and wonder why they're stuck in life. Why they have nothing and continue to have nothing. You won't exit your comfort zone and become a new person. You are stuck in a cycle of repetition. Even God changed. From the old testament to the new God changed. And you'll tell me you're better than God. You don't need to change? That's fucking dumb. I can't make anyone see why I'm best for them... Not mail (that's her code name) and not 20 (who stop talking to me again because she keeps calling private and I told her I'm not going to answer anymore because just call me regular so I can have your number) these people are stuck doing the same shit every year and don't realize THEY need to change. I'm already changing and growing. 

9:30am- I ain't get out of bed yet. Just been laying around thinking and in my feelings. I need to shake this shit off. Cause why I feel sad or whatever. 

9:39pm- I had a good day today. Cleaned up reorganized my living room. I gotta finish my room next. My baby boy birthday is Thursday. Life is going to be good.