I'm going to grow

7:03am- I've always considered myself a open book. Like there is nothing I won't talk about or share with the world. Because in the end we're all having a human experience. An why be embarrassed or secretive about something that every other human on the planet is going through. Even if it doesn't happen to you today it could happen to you tomorrow. Or someone close to you. So why pretend like you're so special. An with that said I live my life with the intent of sharing it as the art it is. But recently I've discovered it's better to talk about what I'm currently doing more than I talk about what I'm planning to do. 

7:15pm- today wasn't so bad. I actually got through the day really good. I prayed this morning and I'm pray after I shower. Then I think I'm try this podcast with my cousin. Although I've been thinking of turning my daily blog into a podcast. 

8:44pm- our lives are made up of moments that collect and gather. Each choice brings us to the next moment in time. We give love in hope we'll get love. None of us are the same. Each day we should strive to be better to grow and change and become the people we feel in our hearts we're destined to be. I stopped drinking and honestly I feel more in control of myself and my thoughts and feelings. The longer I go without smoking or using any Marijuana or THC I feel much better. I don't know, I legit just been slowly feeling better. It's like I'm so ready for different. For new. I'm so ready to be who I know I'm supposed to be. I can't say much because I'm not into talking about the things I'm going to do. I only wanna talk about what I'm doing. Right now I'm in the process of doing really big things. Major things. Last year my life didn't change. Same old shit... This year I'm going to make changes. I want a new place, pay off my debt, and build my brand. 

I'm getting my brand right. I'm going to focus on me. It would've been nice to have a woman by my side while I build my life but I gotta do it alone. That's something I always like about 20. She was always interested in what I'm doing. My YouTube channel my books whatever I'm doing she wanted to know. Mail and 23 they could care less... Why am I even talking about that. Look I'm going to build my brand and get my shit together. Oh and my zipper broke and I can't fix it. I'm hoping 23 will fix it for me. 

this that bullshit.